And I said...

Apparently, blog are perceived as superficial.
People tend not to think of them as important because they think blogs are just another source of bullshit talk. Where people post their funny experiences that happened that day. Funny conversations, stupid things that they did, things they say to "impress" people e.g. posting pictures and stories of what they did in a different country etc.

So the conclusion therefore is that blogs are not worth reading. And even if they do read it, whatever information they get out of the blog is not useful anyway - because they are not "private" anymore. They are not personalised directly to that person like in a direct face-to-face conversation. Bloggers "put on a face" when they blog, because they have to selectively edit what they want the "public" to know and what they want to keep private, and therefore blogs are superficial.

People who have tried blogging find it iffy at best. Many popular comments have been:
1. They start blogging but they stare at the screen and don't know what to write
2. They think its a waste of time - they can't be stuffed putting up their thoughts/what they do online
3. Their thoughts are too private for it to be published like this.
4. Their don't want their thoughts to be known to certain people - and they can't choose who can/cannot access their blog.


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Sometimes, I look around myself, and i realise - wow, things have changed.

I had a unrealistic background anticipation that after exams i'll be able to just pick up my life again and continue.
Guess its not that easy huh?
Besides the lack of motivation in doing things/organising/getting out of bed, there's the additional burden of doing the chores i've put off till post exam.
But what i'm trying to say is that - socially, i've regressed. Being "out of action" for all these time - these things have become foreign to me.

Take blogging for example. I'm so used to the little amount of social interaction that i have, that blogging has become natural. I don't worry about who's reading my blog - cos i know they are people that i trust. They don't tend to chatter about what i've said here behind my back, and their comments, no matter how small or short they may be, all started to mean things to me.

I don't worry about the gossip factor anymore. Its amazing how the concept of gossip affect people. Sure, all bloggers have things they keep private. Things, thoughts, ideas, loves, hates etc they don't share with the cyberworld. But what i find alluring is the fact that sometimes i can blog without breaching that privacy. Things that i just can't shout out loud - i can do it in a discreet way. And its up to whoever that may read it to understand what i may be saying.

Hehe and to answer that question that you'd be forming by now, of cus, most of the time no one would know/understand/decipher what it is that i'm saying, or trying to say.

And i don't expect you to either.

The fact that i can blog, and know that at some point someone will "listen" to me, is a safety cushion for me.

Countless times during social interactions where i've said things that just goes into thin air...
Where i really wanted to complain to someone, discuss some sort of idea, explore some other possibility.
And i wasn't able to.

But i don't mind - because at least i know i can post it here.

And if no one reads it, at least i will.

As I have mentioned before, I blog mostly for myself. And therefore the gratuitousity shown by whoever is reading this blog is greatly appreciated.

Do you feel insulted if you wrote me a mass email and I just refused to read it because its electronic and I want you to say it to me in person instead? Even if the email is not highly important and you just wanted to share some ideas with that person?

whats the point of reading blog of someone you don't care about...?


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"Man i didn't go jogging today! My body doesn't feel rite"
"Hey wow you still jog?"
"Yea 'cus, i do it daily now, wana join me?"
"Nah, jogging is too boring. No motivation do jog. I prefer basketball. I play a lot of basketball these days! much more fun! Had an awesome time at youthtown on sunday"
"oh okie."

"Yo wassup - you finally arrived"
"still eating!? i thought when we called you you just ordered?"
"yea man - look at all these food i have to eat! And she's full already! and he's turned vegetarian! now that you're here you can help me, hehe"
"i'll see eh"
"ya rite, like you'll resist free food. You went to gym today?"
"nah i just had test today."

"how about you?"
"me?i went for a jog after i left your house just now"
"Hey, you've started jogging!? cool! didn't know you do that"
"yea, been doing it for a while"
"hey, next time give me a ring when you go jogging! how often do you jog?"
"everyday if i can..."
"oh. Nah, maybe i'll just join you once a week then. Basketball is betta"

"Hey can i borrow your naruto?? Its soo cool! i'm addicted"
"....you watch naruto now!? since when?"
"since i went to dunedin man! i was so bored down there so i watched it, and its so good! i'm addicted! I wana watch the beginning episodes again"
"i told you about it ages ago and you said its boring..."
"that's cos the stuff you watch is boring!!"
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I made lunch today and took it to temple to eat with mum. She mentioned it and gave me the choice of coming, but i went because i think she would like it if i did.
I burnt jack johnson cd for my friend because she heard it in my car and liked it, so i thought she would enjoy having the cd. I even filled it up with steph sun's mp3s cos i thought she mite like the songs (turns out she didn't)
When i burnt a photo cd for my friend, i filled it up with michael buble's mp3s cos i thought the friend may like it.
A friend was posting me my laptop charger back, and she posted a bag to me at the same time cos she thought i may like it.
A friend delivered a cup of milk tea to my home cos she thought i mite like it.


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My guess is, when you are out of action for so long, no one takes notice of what you say huh?

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