All time low

My life is currently at an low.

Its winter - constantly feels cold.

I'm sick - been sick the whole week and taking ages to get over.

I hate my current job
-something i don't find interesting
-some department where i hate the culture
-some pple that i don't like working with

I hate the current condition NZ health system is in
-Constant labstrikes (no urine tests!!)
-constant lack of doctors - so short of pple that we can't take leave
i feel guilty taking a day off sick cos they won't find pple to replace me
thereby putting a burden on all others.
And it sucks that every single department is short of doctors - meaning pple have to work harder to get things done.

Everyone is stressed.

The combination makes me tired.
Lethargic.

Sick+Tired = can't muster up the energy to exercise.

No exercise = i feel more tired
And fat.
Like how i couldn't fit into my shirt the other day. And jeans feeling tighter than before.

And feeling fat makes me feel crap about myself.

Did i mention its winter and i feel cold?

This sucks.

I want this job to end quickly. I hate it.

I need to get over my sickness.

I need to find the energy to start exercising again.

I need to get fitter.

This sucks.

I'm going to sleep and forget about the real world......