Bye 2012

2012 is finishing.

2012 has been a weird year. 

This has been a rollercoaster of highs and lows.

Its been a outwardly enjoyable year -

- getting accepted for my fellowship

- my great trip to Peru, meeting great people and finally doing the INCA trail

- lots of time with my family

but somehow inwardly it has been a cringeworthy year at best, probably one of my worst recently.

I'm not sure what it is this year, but rainstorms of insecurity cloud my whole being. 

Sometimes I feel like a shell.

Like right now I can't even muster the energy to try and celebrate the coming of 2013, even though there is 36 minutes to go till countdown.

I just want to go to sleep.

My greatest fear, is that I will grow old before enjoying life.

Ironically, this fear, is so immobilising it paralyses me. And I give in to my fears.

May 2013 be the year I can break out of my shell.

Prove that I am still alive.

Find myself.

Be Happy.