inferiority
I really hate that feeling.
The feeling where you are inferior.
It just seemed to me that everyday, i'm faced with being inferior.
There a limit on how inferior i can make myself and i think i'm reaching that limit.
I take orders on a daily basis, listening to other pple, what they want me to do, reporting to them about things i do.
Not only that, but i don't have the ability to do anything well, to be the "expert" in anything, i have no say, i don't have the actual ability to make decisions.
It just seemed that everyone in the world is better than me in everything.
Maybe all this time, i'm just trying to be someone else?
What would it be like to just me myself?
What is myself?
Its this big emptyness that i fill up with remains and bits of other people.
In other words, myself is a rubbish dump.
The feeling where you are inferior.
It just seemed to me that everyday, i'm faced with being inferior.
There a limit on how inferior i can make myself and i think i'm reaching that limit.
I take orders on a daily basis, listening to other pple, what they want me to do, reporting to them about things i do.
Not only that, but i don't have the ability to do anything well, to be the "expert" in anything, i have no say, i don't have the actual ability to make decisions.
It just seemed that everyone in the world is better than me in everything.
Maybe all this time, i'm just trying to be someone else?
What would it be like to just me myself?
What is myself?
Its this big emptyness that i fill up with remains and bits of other people.
In other words, myself is a rubbish dump.
For once I'm not going to try and pull you out of your pity party... instead I will come and join you in it...
ReplyDeleteLife is crap... everything is crap... I am crap...
Nice to see you writing in your blog again tho :)
Missing everyone heaps...
Where are the people to cheer you up when you're down in the dumps eh?
I'm now officially wallowing in my own self-pity... with Moo...
It's good to have a friend in this exercise :P