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Chump(n.) is "a stupid or foolish person", as defined by the FreeOnlineDictionary. It is also defined as "a person who is gullible and easy to take advantage of".
To be chumped is to be gullible and taken advantage of, and that is what i mean when i'm "chumped"...
It can also mean that i've been a stupid or foolish person.
Like how i chumped myself this weekend by not studying and mucking abt wasting time.
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The weight on your shoulders, especially when people plan for the future and you are involved, when the people closest to you becomes unreliable, when you realise that YOU hold the responsiblity to other people's happiness.
Especially matters such as financial support and care.
And the way it antagonises whatever future you might want.
The feeling when the people you normally depend on, starts turning around and become someone whom you want to avoid. When they start demanding and expecting you to deliver. When they too become unreliable.
When people involve you in plans that you don't even know about.
When people you apparently love hurt other people you love.
And you can do nothing but watch them do it.
Everyone hurting each other. No one willing to spend the effort. Everyone working for their own.
What happened to the big family ideal? How did it disintegrate so quickly?
The burden of taking care of people in the future, when i m not even sure if i can take care of myself sufficiently?
Making promises of letting people rely on you in the future? When you see so many of those promises being broken and hearts being broken?
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Remember how i mentioned to let go? Well - this has always been one of the top reasons - sometimes, they simply cant' understand. While my life is certainly not bad by any extreme, i do not expect people from happy happy joy joy lifes to understand these ordeals.
and i certainly dun have the need to tell little kindergarten kiddies events that they will not comprehend.
Why?
I mite as well tell 貢丸 instead. At least he saw and heard the things happening.
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Thank goodness we don't live in a society where tragic stories are the norm.
To be chumped is to be gullible and taken advantage of, and that is what i mean when i'm "chumped"...
It can also mean that i've been a stupid or foolish person.
Like how i chumped myself this weekend by not studying and mucking abt wasting time.
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The weight on your shoulders, especially when people plan for the future and you are involved, when the people closest to you becomes unreliable, when you realise that YOU hold the responsiblity to other people's happiness.
Especially matters such as financial support and care.
And the way it antagonises whatever future you might want.
The feeling when the people you normally depend on, starts turning around and become someone whom you want to avoid. When they start demanding and expecting you to deliver. When they too become unreliable.
When people involve you in plans that you don't even know about.
When people you apparently love hurt other people you love.
And you can do nothing but watch them do it.
Everyone hurting each other. No one willing to spend the effort. Everyone working for their own.
What happened to the big family ideal? How did it disintegrate so quickly?
The burden of taking care of people in the future, when i m not even sure if i can take care of myself sufficiently?
Making promises of letting people rely on you in the future? When you see so many of those promises being broken and hearts being broken?
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Remember how i mentioned to let go? Well - this has always been one of the top reasons - sometimes, they simply cant' understand. While my life is certainly not bad by any extreme, i do not expect people from happy happy joy joy lifes to understand these ordeals.
and i certainly dun have the need to tell little kindergarten kiddies events that they will not comprehend.
Why?
I mite as well tell 貢丸 instead. At least he saw and heard the things happening.
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Thank goodness we don't live in a society where tragic stories are the norm.
oh my god, whos 貢丸?
ReplyDeleteyour new intimate lover?
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