My 21st
I'm 21.
Adult? Nah, i don't think so.
In fact just a few hrs ago my fren just commented that I look young. Well, at least i sound young. Unlike some senior that i know, he looks like a man while i seem more like a boy. according to her.
And yes i'm aware of my personal experiences in which pple ask me if i have kids and if i'm 33 yrs old.
Anyhow...
My birthday celebration started with me sitting at my desk reading some therapeutic notes (on prescribing for the elderly), looking at the time on my cellphone and counting the minutes down to 00:00 on the 27th January 2005. And i celebrated that 1st second of my birthday with bear who gave me a hug. Because i didn't have a camera I used my phone-camera to take a pic of us on the beginning of my 21st birthday.
Got to lectures late again, since i woke up at a prime time of 8:00am for 830 lecture. ah well - hope this trend does NOT continue into my attachments. So...got to the tutorial at 9:00am and the damn tut, which was supposed to finish at 1030, finished at 920!!! I only GOT 20min of tut!? what a waste of time!! i shud have got there even later!! so after hanging out and copying a few stuff at the library (sad eh - at the library on birthday...=( ) we went outside. Gina gave me a card, and a few random pple came up to say happy birthday to me....wonder how they knew! I never told them!! anyhows, saw mike approaching a group of pple outside with a green envelope, so i registered that he was up to something. Then i found him at the cafe a while later and he told me that he wants to do the ACMA advertisement announcement during the break in the lectures afterwards while the whole class was there and told me to come down wif him for the announcement (and say a few stuff to the class like we've been doing for the past few yrs). So my immediate thot was ....alrite, so you are doing this on my bday...i think u r gona announce my bday to the class...well i would. So i spoilt the fun for myself, but i didn't spoil it for him by letting on that i suspected. Play dumb always work. Anyways...after a boring lec which i was totally not listening, he wen to do the announcement for ACMA.
Mike's a surprisingly good speaker now!! Not that he was bad at all before, but he was able to say sometihng witty and was clear in what he said to the class. I have a real problem wif public speaking eh, i think the 2 sentences i said to support him (and get pple to join) were kinda broken sentences and i reckon my pronounciation over the microphone is crap. altho my usual pronounciation of english is very bad tho, i realised. So after that, he said he had a second announcement - and basically hesaid something like:
Woah, that was unexpectated. I knew he mite announce something, but i didnt know he had a mini-speech planned. To the whole class too...And i was standing in front of the whole class at the same time. And a speech like that..it wasn't long but it was nicely done, i think. He was also able to position me at the front of the classs too....and then he got the whole class to sing happy birthday to me and Su Yin (this other girl that shares same birthday with me but not 21)...i duno eh...i was pretty stuck for words...all i could say was thank you...i was actually pretty moved by that gesture!! Especially from mike - not going to get into this now, but i feel that mike n me were closer before but for some personal reasons i found it suffocating so i kinda wanted to be more independent...and i think i mite have been quite sad to him for a while, well from my perspective anyawy...i think he got the idea and started moving away from me after a while. Anyways...i was happy and surprised that he had the courage and cared enough to plan something like this...embarrasing me in front of the whole class!! ><" Had lunch at turkish place wif henry and bob, nothing interesting. Vatsa said she mite come but then later said she couldn't make it, and then txted me to tell me to meet her after the tut she has sometihng to tell me. So i did. Instead i found a group of pple gathered at the sofas - mike, lexi, estee, dil, fred, shabby, dani, nilofer...eventually vatsa arrived and by then i was pretty much suspecting they were gona give me a present. Then mike gave me his bag and told me that my present is in there, but his bag had 3 sets of zips and i can only open ONE set of zips and keep whatever i find inside. So me being greedy thot that the back zip was the biggest compartment so i opened it, ignoring the kicks on my leg that mike was giving me. So i found his notes =.=" So mike being the nice person for the day gave me a 2nd chance and i opened the OTHER zip...and i found a box inside.
The first thing i saw was "DVD +/- RW playable"...which i intepreted as a DVD writer. I was like...no way...!! Then i saw "Sony" ...and i was like what the.....and then i took the box completely out of the bag...and it was a PS2 box!! and it was heavy...so i gave mike this stare (i think he interperted my stare as shock)...and i opened the box...and i found the wires and the controller...and the powerpack...and i was like...what the hell!? and then i opened further and saw this book like ps2 thing!!!!!! MY GOD!! this scene is so familiar....it was the same feeling as when i opened the box to my 6230 and found my cellphone inside! Now i opened a box and found my PS2 inside!! AND it wasn't jus that big ps2 that most of you have - its the slim one!! REALLY SMALL Too!!!!! MY god!!
ANd i looked ard at the pple gathered ard me!! THey were all smiles. MAN!!!~~ my classmates gave me a ps2!?! what the!?!? and 2 memory cards along with the ps2 too!? I just couldn't believe it...
And then they gave me that green card that i saw before.
So mike had to go to his tutorial and after sitting in shock for a few more minutes we packed up and i went home. Altho dani managed to give me a papercut to remember the day by, and she made up for it by driving me to my car. She almost tempted me out to go eat movenpick. IT was an awesome day wif wonderful weather and i realy wanted to go too...shud hav gone n eat movenpick wif her!! and havn't catched up properly wif her too....would have been a good time but guess the moment was lost as soon as i said i had to go somewhere else....
Rushed home and set up the playstation. No games - so i tried to play the Laputa DVD and it WORKED!! yay...
Went to buffet dinner at valentines wif some friends after that, was so full - chatted after for a while till pple started to nod off and returned home. Fell asleep wifout taking a shower, somehow it was so tiring!! hehe I was going to do a countdown to the end of my bday too but at 3 to 12am i coudlnt' be stuffed and went to check the computer instead...haha...otherwise would have been too sad...~~ =(
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28th Jan - after lectures went to gym and then met up wif vivi. I was really thirsty so went to starbucks for a frap. Then she convinced me to go to electronic boutique to look for games, so we walked downtown. we must have spent like 1 hr in the small store looking ard and chatting for so long - cos after a while we were the only customers in there. THere was a discount in there tho - so many 2nd hand games had like 25-50% off!! After checking out games and discussing what's good and what's not, i decided that i shud get a racing game for my bro to play while he's here, otherwise he'll be bored and i dun tihnk he enjoys ff and KH. I was so tempted to buy gun and crisis zone (or even time crisis 3), but decided against it - and vivi kindly agreed to lend hers to me (together wif memory card vivi i want to play the crisis missions,hehehe) for a week when my bro is here. It was $135 so i thot i shud stop being a spendthrift. Anyhow i finally found GT4-prologue, which had 25% off the 49.95 price, so i bought that instead. Vivi also kindly informed and educated me that EB has a 7-day return policy...so maybe if i can figure out how to copy ps2 games...maybe i can buy it, and return it in 7 days? hehe that'll b so cool!
Anyhow after that we went to Daikoku to have ramen for dinner. I like ramen! Its nice!! Eating it reminds me of naruto, kinda makes me believe that i'm naruto!! hehe besides being really dumb i really admire naruto's determination and ability to take in other ppl's put downs and insults and turn it into something positive for himself - to make himself stronger instead of turning to revenge. And that is something i want myself to be like - to take in the grunts and moans of life and use it to fuel my determination!! And keep trying!! Naruto the character is a role model for me. Its so sad eh. Naruto is supposed to be 12 years old and i'm now 21 and still learning from him. Aiii ><" Naruto has a dream. And that dream is his life. It keeps him going, it keeps him alive, it fuels his determination. Should i dream as big as him?? I do dream, but i discard most of my dreams as futile...or i think i'm too unmotivated to want to put in the hard work... anyways...time passes so quick while chatting...talking to vivi is always easy - maybe she thinks that shes not "girly" enough? but i think she's plenty girly enough - come on - earrings, long hair... anyways - vivi is really easy to talk to - i never run out of things to say wif her - cos she share same interests as us guys (some of the interests anyway) - so she never has any problem hanging ard guys - but she has that crucial EQ and understanding that many guys lack but girls have - and last of all - is humble and easy to talk to. I think that's probably one of the reasons why len, as popular as u say she is - enjoys being wif you - probably more than i can imagine since she is a girl too!! and being a girl doesn't mean you are nice and humble - i think ur attitude and the way you speak to pple etc - is very easy going and nice. Maybe vivi could be on the shy side but hey, so is everyone. I'm plenty shy all the time!! can't even count the number of times i avoid saying hi to ppl sometimes...and public speaking ...god....><"
And those naruto and gaara earrings rock. Good on you for inventing them and wearing them! and Good on the person that gave such figurines to you too =P that person must be such a nice person!!! =P=P
The conversation then moved to Vivi's 2 cecil-chat friends. She was saying how one of them said he's gona wear this white wristband today and he DID!! Vivi saw him and didn't say hi to him...hm...anyway his name is shawn 3rd yr biomed...and i was like....he's not shawn xia from senior college?! and vivi said the senior college word at the same time as me...OMG!! i tutored him and his brother!! what a small world!! and then we started talking abt the other guy danny cheng....and he's 3 yrs ahead of vivi also from mcleans...and i was like...hey i think my frens would know him too...and then i remember my classmate LK had a friend named danny and is taiwanese and is doing engineering and is from macleans...and HEY!!~ its the same guy!! think i've met him once. This world is so small eh? 2 random guys that vivi met in cecil chat, no idea who they were, and somehow i managed to connect it up!!
and contrary to vivi's believe, no, its not cause i know pple - i dun actually know them!if i met those 2 pple they wont know who i am!!! THey are mostly friends of friends or friends of mum! The amount of friends that i have compared to say my mum's or my brothers's is pitiful. Come on - my brother has like 2500 contacts in his cellphone - i have like.....pitiful amounts....(not that its a measure of anything but jus making a poiint)....my bro has groups of friends in NZ, singapore AND taiwan...while i have like 2 friends in singapore (who don't really know each other so its difficult when i go therE) and i hav no friends in taiwan...well i did meet some kids when i was young but because i was so socially inept we lost contact.
I think its appropriate at this point that i mention one of my regrets in my 21 yrs. Its constantly been there - sometimes i ignore it, but...i wish i play more basketball. REasons y i regret:
1. That's part of the reason why i m so socially inept. Most guys play bball. I don't - its hard for me to hang out wif them and get to know them. THat's also the reason why i lost contact wif those taiwanese kids i knew - if i was better at bball i could ask them out to play or join them and get to know them better. Probably better respected too if i can play good ball?
2. i'll probably be taller now and fitter if i played more bball.
3. Same thing thru highsch - could have got to know more pple if i played more bball. Would have definitely widened my social circle more instead of limiting myself to the pple i usually hanged out wif. THat's one real regret
4. THere was a point in my life where i actually had 2 paths to take - to play or not to play bball. THat was in form 3 - a classmate invited me to go play at the bball court wif them and i rejected, cos i suck and i duno most of the pple there (Cos it was a new school and i didn't know anyone). But in intermediate i was part of the group and even tho i sucked the group never really made derogatory or bad comment abt me - i was still invited to bball on saturdays and i had fun! However that all stopped in highsch...cos i didn't go to play wif those pple in the beginning and i didn't join in later too (since i still sucked at bball even more)...so that's how i lost my chance...
THat's another thing eh - the group of friends i made in Intermediate when i first came to NZ...well i thot we were pretty good frens then (in kids terms) - but now i dun even know any of them anymore. I occasionally see one once in a while (cos he's my mum's student) ...but that's it. Met one of them at the hospital (cos he's the son of my mum's car mechanic)...and we barely know each other now. So much for having social skills? I dun even have any intermediate friends left anymore. THe other day i was making up list of pple to invite for 21st and i coudln't even list more than 5 pple from highsch that are friend friends.......
Heh...in fact 5 is probably overestimating it a bit........but lets not be negative here - since i've omitted most of the negative stuff i have in my mind now i won't start being negative.
Anyway compared to my brother i have no history - i dun leave friends everywhere like he does. When i come to NZ i don't have abt 50 pple coming to send me off at the airport, while multiple girls crying. I don't receive postcards every other day and letters and faxes from friends (in the mid90's period). When i go to singapore i have 1 friend that treats me real good (which i'm grateful for) compared to like 5 friends offering their places to stay at and 2-3 groups of friends that i could meet up.
Yea if my bro was reading this he'll probably explain some inside details to me and say i'm exaggeratiing it a bit. Not the numbers tho, there were seriously like more than 50 pple at the airport sending him off...it was almost like fans sending Jay Chou out of the country or something.
And for those who are wondering why i'm suddenly bitching abt the friends thing AGAIN...well this explains some of the reason behind my friendless-bitching.
But this is to also in reply to someone's claim that i'm NOT socially incapable.
WEll you see, i actually am.
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After sending vivi off mike rang me and we managed to get mimi out. So went to mike's house and he lent me ffx!! (which i left at his house, clever me ><") and then we went to mimi's house to pick her up. Her house, btw, is so nice! overlooks eastern beach at a 100m cliff, with a greenfield just beside it...wow...and with red clouds against a baby-blue background...man~ that is picturistique...seriously!! Anyway we went out to internet cafe for drinks....somehow we got onto the topic of plastic surgery!! did you know that girls actually want to modify their labia minora to make it smaller than the labia majora (or is it the other way round??) to make it look niceR?! crazy!! anyways...after that we wanted to watch "the incredibles", so thinking it was still on we went to berkeleys and wanted to try out the new seats. But no such luck - it wasn't on. Wandered over to Highland park instead and it wasn't on there too. So decided to go to eastern beach to chat. So we got to the beach. It was all dark but moon was clear and bright. Got out of the car and sat on the bench. IT was nice - peaceful, beach, bench.......BUT IT WAS SO WINDY!!! mimi was so cold...and then mike went to get his blanket...and mimi covered herslef up. But then me and mike all became cold - so we made mimi share her blanket. So imagine this - the 3 of us sitting at the bench on eastern beach at night covered up with blanket with the strong wind blowing at us at 1130 pm at nite. And laughing our heads off at the absurdity of the situation!!!!
So we decided to see who could last the longest and not give in to the cold. Continued to bitch abt ACMA developments and some ppl in our class, hehe. IT was kinda sad ofme tho cos he did sometihng nice to me and i was bitching ...^^" Mimi decided she couldn't take it anymore so we gave all the blanket to her and she wrapped herself ard it. We then started walking ard the beach. Chatting abt stuff - it was nice. IT was non-serious, lighthearted chat - not really superficial but still lighthearted. totally enjoyed it!! Decided it was cold so we retreated to mimi's house to chat some more. Eventually mimi was like nodding off too and since she has to work tomorrow we decided to give her a break, and went home.
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And lastly, i would like to thank Mike T once again for his thoughtfulness and planning. For planning such that he can use ACMA as an excuse to put me on the spot (literally and metaphorically), for organising the PS2 (getting 18 pple to share a present is NOT an easy task, believe me, i've tried), for wanting to hang out wif me today, for driving me and mimi ard from city --> buckland's beach --> botany downs ---> eastern beach --> city...
This has already made a permanent mark in my memory.
And to my other friends that has wished me well both here and outside - thank you too = )
Its been nice knowing you over my last few juvenile years.
Adult? Nah, i don't think so.
In fact just a few hrs ago my fren just commented that I look young. Well, at least i sound young. Unlike some senior that i know, he looks like a man while i seem more like a boy. according to her.
And yes i'm aware of my personal experiences in which pple ask me if i have kids and if i'm 33 yrs old.
Anyhow...
My birthday celebration started with me sitting at my desk reading some therapeutic notes (on prescribing for the elderly), looking at the time on my cellphone and counting the minutes down to 00:00 on the 27th January 2005. And i celebrated that 1st second of my birthday with bear who gave me a hug. Because i didn't have a camera I used my phone-camera to take a pic of us on the beginning of my 21st birthday.
Got to lectures late again, since i woke up at a prime time of 8:00am for 830 lecture. ah well - hope this trend does NOT continue into my attachments. So...got to the tutorial at 9:00am and the damn tut, which was supposed to finish at 1030, finished at 920!!! I only GOT 20min of tut!? what a waste of time!! i shud have got there even later!! so after hanging out and copying a few stuff at the library (sad eh - at the library on birthday...=( ) we went outside. Gina gave me a card, and a few random pple came up to say happy birthday to me....wonder how they knew! I never told them!! anyhows, saw mike approaching a group of pple outside with a green envelope, so i registered that he was up to something. Then i found him at the cafe a while later and he told me that he wants to do the ACMA advertisement announcement during the break in the lectures afterwards while the whole class was there and told me to come down wif him for the announcement (and say a few stuff to the class like we've been doing for the past few yrs). So my immediate thot was ....alrite, so you are doing this on my bday...i think u r gona announce my bday to the class...well i would. So i spoilt the fun for myself, but i didn't spoil it for him by letting on that i suspected. Play dumb always work. Anyways...after a boring lec which i was totally not listening, he wen to do the announcement for ACMA.
Mike's a surprisingly good speaker now!! Not that he was bad at all before, but he was able to say sometihng witty and was clear in what he said to the class. I have a real problem wif public speaking eh, i think the 2 sentences i said to support him (and get pple to join) were kinda broken sentences and i reckon my pronounciation over the microphone is crap. altho my usual pronounciation of english is very bad tho, i realised. So after that, he said he had a second announcement - and basically hesaid something like:
"I have a 2nd announcement to make. Today is the the birthday of a good mate of mine, one of the first pple i first met in fresher's camp. I got to know him better when we did 106 lab together, and he was texting while squirting NaOH into my hand. He is the one that reinforced my addiction to final fantasy and dragonballz, and is popular with the girls. He's turning 21 today and he is standing beside me right now. Happy birthday Jeff!"
Woah, that was unexpectated. I knew he mite announce something, but i didnt know he had a mini-speech planned. To the whole class too...And i was standing in front of the whole class at the same time. And a speech like that..it wasn't long but it was nicely done, i think. He was also able to position me at the front of the classs too....and then he got the whole class to sing happy birthday to me and Su Yin (this other girl that shares same birthday with me but not 21)...i duno eh...i was pretty stuck for words...all i could say was thank you...i was actually pretty moved by that gesture!! Especially from mike - not going to get into this now, but i feel that mike n me were closer before but for some personal reasons i found it suffocating so i kinda wanted to be more independent...and i think i mite have been quite sad to him for a while, well from my perspective anyawy...i think he got the idea and started moving away from me after a while. Anyways...i was happy and surprised that he had the courage and cared enough to plan something like this...embarrasing me in front of the whole class!! ><" Had lunch at turkish place wif henry and bob, nothing interesting. Vatsa said she mite come but then later said she couldn't make it, and then txted me to tell me to meet her after the tut she has sometihng to tell me. So i did. Instead i found a group of pple gathered at the sofas - mike, lexi, estee, dil, fred, shabby, dani, nilofer...eventually vatsa arrived and by then i was pretty much suspecting they were gona give me a present. Then mike gave me his bag and told me that my present is in there, but his bag had 3 sets of zips and i can only open ONE set of zips and keep whatever i find inside. So me being greedy thot that the back zip was the biggest compartment so i opened it, ignoring the kicks on my leg that mike was giving me. So i found his notes =.=" So mike being the nice person for the day gave me a 2nd chance and i opened the OTHER zip...and i found a box inside.
The first thing i saw was "DVD +/- RW playable"...which i intepreted as a DVD writer. I was like...no way...!! Then i saw "Sony" ...and i was like what the.....and then i took the box completely out of the bag...and it was a PS2 box!! and it was heavy...so i gave mike this stare (i think he interperted my stare as shock)...and i opened the box...and i found the wires and the controller...and the powerpack...and i was like...what the hell!? and then i opened further and saw this book like ps2 thing!!!!!! MY GOD!! this scene is so familiar....it was the same feeling as when i opened the box to my 6230 and found my cellphone inside! Now i opened a box and found my PS2 inside!! AND it wasn't jus that big ps2 that most of you have - its the slim one!! REALLY SMALL Too!!!!! MY god!!
ANd i looked ard at the pple gathered ard me!! THey were all smiles. MAN!!!~~ my classmates gave me a ps2!?! what the!?!? and 2 memory cards along with the ps2 too!? I just couldn't believe it...
And then they gave me that green card that i saw before.
So mike had to go to his tutorial and after sitting in shock for a few more minutes we packed up and i went home. Altho dani managed to give me a papercut to remember the day by, and she made up for it by driving me to my car. She almost tempted me out to go eat movenpick. IT was an awesome day wif wonderful weather and i realy wanted to go too...shud hav gone n eat movenpick wif her!! and havn't catched up properly wif her too....would have been a good time but guess the moment was lost as soon as i said i had to go somewhere else....
Rushed home and set up the playstation. No games - so i tried to play the Laputa DVD and it WORKED!! yay...
Went to buffet dinner at valentines wif some friends after that, was so full - chatted after for a while till pple started to nod off and returned home. Fell asleep wifout taking a shower, somehow it was so tiring!! hehe I was going to do a countdown to the end of my bday too but at 3 to 12am i coudlnt' be stuffed and went to check the computer instead...haha...otherwise would have been too sad...~~ =(
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28th Jan - after lectures went to gym and then met up wif vivi. I was really thirsty so went to starbucks for a frap. Then she convinced me to go to electronic boutique to look for games, so we walked downtown. we must have spent like 1 hr in the small store looking ard and chatting for so long - cos after a while we were the only customers in there. THere was a discount in there tho - so many 2nd hand games had like 25-50% off!! After checking out games and discussing what's good and what's not, i decided that i shud get a racing game for my bro to play while he's here, otherwise he'll be bored and i dun tihnk he enjoys ff and KH. I was so tempted to buy gun and crisis zone (or even time crisis 3), but decided against it - and vivi kindly agreed to lend hers to me (together wif memory card vivi i want to play the crisis missions,hehehe) for a week when my bro is here. It was $135 so i thot i shud stop being a spendthrift. Anyhow i finally found GT4-prologue, which had 25% off the 49.95 price, so i bought that instead. Vivi also kindly informed and educated me that EB has a 7-day return policy...so maybe if i can figure out how to copy ps2 games...maybe i can buy it, and return it in 7 days? hehe that'll b so cool!
Anyhow after that we went to Daikoku to have ramen for dinner. I like ramen! Its nice!! Eating it reminds me of naruto, kinda makes me believe that i'm naruto!! hehe besides being really dumb i really admire naruto's determination and ability to take in other ppl's put downs and insults and turn it into something positive for himself - to make himself stronger instead of turning to revenge. And that is something i want myself to be like - to take in the grunts and moans of life and use it to fuel my determination!! And keep trying!! Naruto the character is a role model for me. Its so sad eh. Naruto is supposed to be 12 years old and i'm now 21 and still learning from him. Aiii ><" Naruto has a dream. And that dream is his life. It keeps him going, it keeps him alive, it fuels his determination. Should i dream as big as him?? I do dream, but i discard most of my dreams as futile...or i think i'm too unmotivated to want to put in the hard work... anyways...time passes so quick while chatting...talking to vivi is always easy - maybe she thinks that shes not "girly" enough? but i think she's plenty girly enough - come on - earrings, long hair... anyways - vivi is really easy to talk to - i never run out of things to say wif her - cos she share same interests as us guys (some of the interests anyway) - so she never has any problem hanging ard guys - but she has that crucial EQ and understanding that many guys lack but girls have - and last of all - is humble and easy to talk to. I think that's probably one of the reasons why len, as popular as u say she is - enjoys being wif you - probably more than i can imagine since she is a girl too!! and being a girl doesn't mean you are nice and humble - i think ur attitude and the way you speak to pple etc - is very easy going and nice. Maybe vivi could be on the shy side but hey, so is everyone. I'm plenty shy all the time!! can't even count the number of times i avoid saying hi to ppl sometimes...and public speaking ...god....><"
And those naruto and gaara earrings rock. Good on you for inventing them and wearing them! and Good on the person that gave such figurines to you too =P that person must be such a nice person!!! =P=P
The conversation then moved to Vivi's 2 cecil-chat friends. She was saying how one of them said he's gona wear this white wristband today and he DID!! Vivi saw him and didn't say hi to him...hm...anyway his name is shawn 3rd yr biomed...and i was like....he's not shawn xia from senior college?! and vivi said the senior college word at the same time as me...OMG!! i tutored him and his brother!! what a small world!! and then we started talking abt the other guy danny cheng....and he's 3 yrs ahead of vivi also from mcleans...and i was like...hey i think my frens would know him too...and then i remember my classmate LK had a friend named danny and is taiwanese and is doing engineering and is from macleans...and HEY!!~ its the same guy!! think i've met him once. This world is so small eh? 2 random guys that vivi met in cecil chat, no idea who they were, and somehow i managed to connect it up!!
and contrary to vivi's believe, no, its not cause i know pple - i dun actually know them!if i met those 2 pple they wont know who i am!!! THey are mostly friends of friends or friends of mum! The amount of friends that i have compared to say my mum's or my brothers's is pitiful. Come on - my brother has like 2500 contacts in his cellphone - i have like.....pitiful amounts....(not that its a measure of anything but jus making a poiint)....my bro has groups of friends in NZ, singapore AND taiwan...while i have like 2 friends in singapore (who don't really know each other so its difficult when i go therE) and i hav no friends in taiwan...well i did meet some kids when i was young but because i was so socially inept we lost contact.
I think its appropriate at this point that i mention one of my regrets in my 21 yrs. Its constantly been there - sometimes i ignore it, but...i wish i play more basketball. REasons y i regret:
1. That's part of the reason why i m so socially inept. Most guys play bball. I don't - its hard for me to hang out wif them and get to know them. THat's also the reason why i lost contact wif those taiwanese kids i knew - if i was better at bball i could ask them out to play or join them and get to know them better. Probably better respected too if i can play good ball?
2. i'll probably be taller now and fitter if i played more bball.
3. Same thing thru highsch - could have got to know more pple if i played more bball. Would have definitely widened my social circle more instead of limiting myself to the pple i usually hanged out wif. THat's one real regret
4. THere was a point in my life where i actually had 2 paths to take - to play or not to play bball. THat was in form 3 - a classmate invited me to go play at the bball court wif them and i rejected, cos i suck and i duno most of the pple there (Cos it was a new school and i didn't know anyone). But in intermediate i was part of the group and even tho i sucked the group never really made derogatory or bad comment abt me - i was still invited to bball on saturdays and i had fun! However that all stopped in highsch...cos i didn't go to play wif those pple in the beginning and i didn't join in later too (since i still sucked at bball even more)...so that's how i lost my chance...
THat's another thing eh - the group of friends i made in Intermediate when i first came to NZ...well i thot we were pretty good frens then (in kids terms) - but now i dun even know any of them anymore. I occasionally see one once in a while (cos he's my mum's student) ...but that's it. Met one of them at the hospital (cos he's the son of my mum's car mechanic)...and we barely know each other now. So much for having social skills? I dun even have any intermediate friends left anymore. THe other day i was making up list of pple to invite for 21st and i coudln't even list more than 5 pple from highsch that are friend friends.......
Heh...in fact 5 is probably overestimating it a bit........but lets not be negative here - since i've omitted most of the negative stuff i have in my mind now i won't start being negative.
Anyway compared to my brother i have no history - i dun leave friends everywhere like he does. When i come to NZ i don't have abt 50 pple coming to send me off at the airport, while multiple girls crying. I don't receive postcards every other day and letters and faxes from friends (in the mid90's period). When i go to singapore i have 1 friend that treats me real good (which i'm grateful for) compared to like 5 friends offering their places to stay at and 2-3 groups of friends that i could meet up.
Yea if my bro was reading this he'll probably explain some inside details to me and say i'm exaggeratiing it a bit. Not the numbers tho, there were seriously like more than 50 pple at the airport sending him off...it was almost like fans sending Jay Chou out of the country or something.
And for those who are wondering why i'm suddenly bitching abt the friends thing AGAIN...well this explains some of the reason behind my friendless-bitching.
But this is to also in reply to someone's claim that i'm NOT socially incapable.
WEll you see, i actually am.
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After sending vivi off mike rang me and we managed to get mimi out. So went to mike's house and he lent me ffx!! (which i left at his house, clever me ><") and then we went to mimi's house to pick her up. Her house, btw, is so nice! overlooks eastern beach at a 100m cliff, with a greenfield just beside it...wow...and with red clouds against a baby-blue background...man~ that is picturistique...seriously!! Anyway we went out to internet cafe for drinks....somehow we got onto the topic of plastic surgery!! did you know that girls actually want to modify their labia minora to make it smaller than the labia majora (or is it the other way round??) to make it look niceR?! crazy!! anyways...after that we wanted to watch "the incredibles", so thinking it was still on we went to berkeleys and wanted to try out the new seats. But no such luck - it wasn't on. Wandered over to Highland park instead and it wasn't on there too. So decided to go to eastern beach to chat. So we got to the beach. It was all dark but moon was clear and bright. Got out of the car and sat on the bench. IT was nice - peaceful, beach, bench.......BUT IT WAS SO WINDY!!! mimi was so cold...and then mike went to get his blanket...and mimi covered herslef up. But then me and mike all became cold - so we made mimi share her blanket. So imagine this - the 3 of us sitting at the bench on eastern beach at night covered up with blanket with the strong wind blowing at us at 1130 pm at nite. And laughing our heads off at the absurdity of the situation!!!!
So we decided to see who could last the longest and not give in to the cold. Continued to bitch abt ACMA developments and some ppl in our class, hehe. IT was kinda sad ofme tho cos he did sometihng nice to me and i was bitching ...^^" Mimi decided she couldn't take it anymore so we gave all the blanket to her and she wrapped herself ard it. We then started walking ard the beach. Chatting abt stuff - it was nice. IT was non-serious, lighthearted chat - not really superficial but still lighthearted. totally enjoyed it!! Decided it was cold so we retreated to mimi's house to chat some more. Eventually mimi was like nodding off too and since she has to work tomorrow we decided to give her a break, and went home.
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And lastly, i would like to thank Mike T once again for his thoughtfulness and planning. For planning such that he can use ACMA as an excuse to put me on the spot (literally and metaphorically), for organising the PS2 (getting 18 pple to share a present is NOT an easy task, believe me, i've tried), for wanting to hang out wif me today, for driving me and mimi ard from city --> buckland's beach --> botany downs ---> eastern beach --> city...
This has already made a permanent mark in my memory.
And to my other friends that has wished me well both here and outside - thank you too = )
Its been nice knowing you over my last few juvenile years.
.........My adult life, starts here........
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