End of geris
Departure from the normal blog look. Hope this one looks ok?
Geri is finally over. Could have been more organised.
On the other hand, Oz trip is about to start. YAY!! so excited. Why am i so sleepy tho? I practically had the whole day off, slept most of the day, didn't do anything of note. Ai.
Man, I have 2 runs left before the final exam. Can i handle the stress?
Guess i'm bringing textbooks to oz...aii
I'm already making shopping plans of wat to buy there already, haha...serene - watch out!! =P I won't let you escape!! =P
I'm drinking bourbon n sprite rite now...i guess i like the taste of bourbon too much, no coke at home, so have to replace with sprite. And surprisingly its ok.
Mental note to get myself a bottle of black bourbon on arrival...hehe...
This whole new environment thing is kinda getting on my nerves a bit eh.
i mean-i've practically moved thru like...6 specialties in the last 4 weeks. Ophthalmology, neurosurgery, ent, urology, geriatrics, GP...
Everytime i move i have to go to a new place
Get used the new pple i see there.
The new classmates that i hang out wif,or lack of classmates.
new environment, new hospital (have to find where to park, where the wards are, how to get there)
like on tuesday I have to drive all the way to orewa.
Now on monday i have to go to a new country, new hospital, new specialty, new environment, new place to live, not to mention new pple...
The night before everytime i need to go to a new place i get nervous. I mite get lost, i'll have to introduce myself to random pple, make impressions, do this, do that.
And at the end of the day - what do i get out of it?
They forget who i am.
That's whats been like this whole year. I move thru different specialties, and doesn't really get to know anyone. Cos i didnt' spend long enuff time wif them. i'm not one of those pple who make lasting first impressions. In fact, i probably make bad first impressions. It takes me a certain term before i can open up, and it depends heavily on how friendly and nice the other person is. Guess it that self confidence thing again.
The trend in my life seems to be that I enjoy good things late.
One of the most memorable experiences in my life is the Taiwan tour 2000.
I started the tour as mostly a loner, didn't know anyone, just tagging along.
Then i started making a few friends, things got better...
However somehow i wasn't a full part of the "group". Even by the middle of the tour, there were still times where i roam around by myself, feeling a bit lonely and apprehensive that i'm probably the only one walking ard by myself. I was too scared to jump into other pple's groups cos i thought i didn't "fit in". I can remember one example of the time when i was actively trying to look for the group of pple to hang out with at the same time trying to avoid them cos i...didn't know if i could fit in. After all they didn't exactly expect me to be there and i hate the feeling of being a tag along.
In saying all this, by the last few days of the tour things went 180 degrees and i wish the tour will never end. And guess wat - i regret that i took so long to get "into it" and enjoy myself. All those times - when i could have had the same amount of fun, laughter, memories, i spent them dealing with my own insecurities. Talk about lost moments eh.
There were so many things i wish i could have done on the tour. But, if i was to go on the tour again now, with my current mindset and mind - would i do much betteR?
i think not.
I was who i was back then. I was innocent, new to the world, I was learning, i was "pure" in my own sense.
And i know that the people i met then, was true to me as i was true to them.
The people you meet now, well - there's these layers of complexity that comes with age that complicates things.
Anyhow - I just manage to copy the 4 cd soundtrack of ALL the final fantasy x music. You know, the 4 cd collection called the Final Fantasy X Original Sountrack.
I love it, listening to it right now.
Ahh....yuna.............................*drool*
Geri is finally over. Could have been more organised.
On the other hand, Oz trip is about to start. YAY!! so excited. Why am i so sleepy tho? I practically had the whole day off, slept most of the day, didn't do anything of note. Ai.
Man, I have 2 runs left before the final exam. Can i handle the stress?
Guess i'm bringing textbooks to oz...aii
I'm already making shopping plans of wat to buy there already, haha...serene - watch out!! =P I won't let you escape!! =P
I'm drinking bourbon n sprite rite now...i guess i like the taste of bourbon too much, no coke at home, so have to replace with sprite. And surprisingly its ok.
Mental note to get myself a bottle of black bourbon on arrival...hehe...
This whole new environment thing is kinda getting on my nerves a bit eh.
i mean-i've practically moved thru like...6 specialties in the last 4 weeks. Ophthalmology, neurosurgery, ent, urology, geriatrics, GP...
Everytime i move i have to go to a new place
Get used the new pple i see there.
The new classmates that i hang out wif,or lack of classmates.
new environment, new hospital (have to find where to park, where the wards are, how to get there)
like on tuesday I have to drive all the way to orewa.
Now on monday i have to go to a new country, new hospital, new specialty, new environment, new place to live, not to mention new pple...
The night before everytime i need to go to a new place i get nervous. I mite get lost, i'll have to introduce myself to random pple, make impressions, do this, do that.
And at the end of the day - what do i get out of it?
They forget who i am.
That's whats been like this whole year. I move thru different specialties, and doesn't really get to know anyone. Cos i didnt' spend long enuff time wif them. i'm not one of those pple who make lasting first impressions. In fact, i probably make bad first impressions. It takes me a certain term before i can open up, and it depends heavily on how friendly and nice the other person is. Guess it that self confidence thing again.
The trend in my life seems to be that I enjoy good things late.
One of the most memorable experiences in my life is the Taiwan tour 2000.
I started the tour as mostly a loner, didn't know anyone, just tagging along.
Then i started making a few friends, things got better...
However somehow i wasn't a full part of the "group". Even by the middle of the tour, there were still times where i roam around by myself, feeling a bit lonely and apprehensive that i'm probably the only one walking ard by myself. I was too scared to jump into other pple's groups cos i thought i didn't "fit in". I can remember one example of the time when i was actively trying to look for the group of pple to hang out with at the same time trying to avoid them cos i...didn't know if i could fit in. After all they didn't exactly expect me to be there and i hate the feeling of being a tag along.
In saying all this, by the last few days of the tour things went 180 degrees and i wish the tour will never end. And guess wat - i regret that i took so long to get "into it" and enjoy myself. All those times - when i could have had the same amount of fun, laughter, memories, i spent them dealing with my own insecurities. Talk about lost moments eh.
There were so many things i wish i could have done on the tour. But, if i was to go on the tour again now, with my current mindset and mind - would i do much betteR?
i think not.
I was who i was back then. I was innocent, new to the world, I was learning, i was "pure" in my own sense.
And i know that the people i met then, was true to me as i was true to them.
The people you meet now, well - there's these layers of complexity that comes with age that complicates things.
Anyhow - I just manage to copy the 4 cd soundtrack of ALL the final fantasy x music. You know, the 4 cd collection called the Final Fantasy X Original Sountrack.
I love it, listening to it right now.
Ahh....yuna.............................*drool*
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