Missed da bus
So I missed da bus...
Ya, as i mentioned in da last blog, i rushed off to catch the 701 bus, but when i got there it was already 707, and i waited till 715pm....and still no bus.
So i have to hang ard here till 801pm for the nxt bus.
And dinner is cooling down for me at home...=(
I txted vidya telling her to go for a jog with me and now i can't even make it!!! =( =( =(
Man time passing so quick, its 1 wk over already. And i've done so little work in terms of study!!
But this is so fun. I'm so looking fw to my elective...altho, it'll b very different cos i'll b travelling by myself. I wont' have that added security of having 2 other pple with me, you know? And those 2 girls are very brave as well. They don't mind asking others for help, doing thigns that i'll b too embarrased to do (e.g. push the supermarket trolley all da way home from the supermarket, which is a 20min walk), they found this accomodation (altho not the BEST but still they found one), they know abt cheaper student concession tickets, they know what trains/buses to take, while they dun mind spending money they try to save if they can as well. They are not stressed and they are not competitive.
I duno what they think of me but its been awesomely enjoyable so far...
I wish i have 3 months of this...!!
I think i have a overly pessimestic nature eh - i look into the future and all i can see if darkness wherever i go, like i expect the worst of everything. For example now i'm looking at my elective next yr and imagining how bad it'll be and how i'll have to sort out my own accomodation and find my way ard and getting lost etc. Like how i got lost a few times last week and how i took the wrong bus. Except next time there isn't any back up - i can't call vid or stella for help if i really need it and i'll be in a foreign place. Hmm...
I need to stop being such a little baby and take whatever life is throwing at me eh?
Its hard you know, its impossible to want to take a step further when you know u mite fall someday...the hurt and pain and the blood you have to bleed to get there...
HAHa i was jus thinking that i havn't been typing much emotional stuff lately, describing what i've been doing all the time, i miss talking to my blogger-shrink!! =P
Anyhows back to today...
So i went to clinic wif Dr Bastion, who got me to see patients for him, and listen to an aortic stenosis murmur. It was pretty uneventful, after he finished he sent me to Prof Fletcher (Whom i'm under anyway, but he just doesn't really care if i'm here cos he's really busy...i hope its not cos he doesn't like me!! anyway negative thoughts go away!!) and he got me to listen to those murmurs i described! cool...! anyhows after that he got me to talk to this macedonian patient with diabetes and it was pretty boring. HE didn't even take time to listen to my 2 sentences of how the consultation went like dr bastion did. Ah well.
He's such a typical professor tho - nice demeanor, kind and non-aggressive when you talk to him, knows the right words to say, beautiful phrases. But even tho he's so "nice" you notice the "i'm only being professionally nice" vibe underneath. That's what i feel about many of those pple who are "up therE". Like politicians. THey can come across like they'r so warm and so caring, but when you actually talk to them somehow they jus come off really cold. And i noticed many professors r like that. Its like you need that to become a professor!!
Guess pple with good mouths are able to make it up there eh?
Its funny - maybe this is a vicious cycle of some sort - the "important" pple up there, who are this kind of prof like personality, are only impressed by other pple who are professional and like themselves - and therefore there's this chain of pple who become chosen for the job who are like that - professional but cold, nice but superficial.
Anyhow that's how my afternoon ended. It was ok - at least i got to take histories and stuff.
Taking histories is hard eh- especially under pressure. Its not like i duno how to take and what to ask - its that when i stress i forget the basics and i go all over the place!!! so bad...
anyhows, shud i go to syd 2mr, which means i hav to leave hosp early and have a long daY?? shud i shud i ?? hard decision...
I'm worried abt my end of yr exam now....its like last yr - i went skiing in nov for 4 days when i'm supposed to be studying for exam in dec.......^^"
At times i realise that this is probably the last of my student student yr - where i dont get paid - and i shud really make the most use of being a student- and study hard like a proper student. but somehow the motivation is lacking.
Alrite i'll stop here. I think thomas has internet at home so i'll update if there's anything interesting happening in da wkend, from his place. = )
Ya, as i mentioned in da last blog, i rushed off to catch the 701 bus, but when i got there it was already 707, and i waited till 715pm....and still no bus.
So i have to hang ard here till 801pm for the nxt bus.
And dinner is cooling down for me at home...=(
I txted vidya telling her to go for a jog with me and now i can't even make it!!! =( =( =(
Man time passing so quick, its 1 wk over already. And i've done so little work in terms of study!!
But this is so fun. I'm so looking fw to my elective...altho, it'll b very different cos i'll b travelling by myself. I wont' have that added security of having 2 other pple with me, you know? And those 2 girls are very brave as well. They don't mind asking others for help, doing thigns that i'll b too embarrased to do (e.g. push the supermarket trolley all da way home from the supermarket, which is a 20min walk), they found this accomodation (altho not the BEST but still they found one), they know abt cheaper student concession tickets, they know what trains/buses to take, while they dun mind spending money they try to save if they can as well. They are not stressed and they are not competitive.
I duno what they think of me but its been awesomely enjoyable so far...
I wish i have 3 months of this...!!
I think i have a overly pessimestic nature eh - i look into the future and all i can see if darkness wherever i go, like i expect the worst of everything. For example now i'm looking at my elective next yr and imagining how bad it'll be and how i'll have to sort out my own accomodation and find my way ard and getting lost etc. Like how i got lost a few times last week and how i took the wrong bus. Except next time there isn't any back up - i can't call vid or stella for help if i really need it and i'll be in a foreign place. Hmm...
I need to stop being such a little baby and take whatever life is throwing at me eh?
Its hard you know, its impossible to want to take a step further when you know u mite fall someday...the hurt and pain and the blood you have to bleed to get there...
HAHa i was jus thinking that i havn't been typing much emotional stuff lately, describing what i've been doing all the time, i miss talking to my blogger-shrink!! =P
Anyhows back to today...
So i went to clinic wif Dr Bastion, who got me to see patients for him, and listen to an aortic stenosis murmur. It was pretty uneventful, after he finished he sent me to Prof Fletcher (Whom i'm under anyway, but he just doesn't really care if i'm here cos he's really busy...i hope its not cos he doesn't like me!! anyway negative thoughts go away!!) and he got me to listen to those murmurs i described! cool...! anyhows after that he got me to talk to this macedonian patient with diabetes and it was pretty boring. HE didn't even take time to listen to my 2 sentences of how the consultation went like dr bastion did. Ah well.
He's such a typical professor tho - nice demeanor, kind and non-aggressive when you talk to him, knows the right words to say, beautiful phrases. But even tho he's so "nice" you notice the "i'm only being professionally nice" vibe underneath. That's what i feel about many of those pple who are "up therE". Like politicians. THey can come across like they'r so warm and so caring, but when you actually talk to them somehow they jus come off really cold. And i noticed many professors r like that. Its like you need that to become a professor!!
Guess pple with good mouths are able to make it up there eh?
Its funny - maybe this is a vicious cycle of some sort - the "important" pple up there, who are this kind of prof like personality, are only impressed by other pple who are professional and like themselves - and therefore there's this chain of pple who become chosen for the job who are like that - professional but cold, nice but superficial.
Anyhow that's how my afternoon ended. It was ok - at least i got to take histories and stuff.
Taking histories is hard eh- especially under pressure. Its not like i duno how to take and what to ask - its that when i stress i forget the basics and i go all over the place!!! so bad...
anyhows, shud i go to syd 2mr, which means i hav to leave hosp early and have a long daY?? shud i shud i ?? hard decision...
I'm worried abt my end of yr exam now....its like last yr - i went skiing in nov for 4 days when i'm supposed to be studying for exam in dec.......^^"
At times i realise that this is probably the last of my student student yr - where i dont get paid - and i shud really make the most use of being a student- and study hard like a proper student. but somehow the motivation is lacking.
Alrite i'll stop here. I think thomas has internet at home so i'll update if there's anything interesting happening in da wkend, from his place. = )
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