Generalised tiredness today, probably cos i need more sleep.
A mechanic friend of ours came to pick up car to do WOF today. He had a colon adenocarcinoma taken out earlier this year whilst i was doing my surgery run. Seeing him today at my house today reminded me the complications to his operation. He ended up with some necrotic perianal area leaking out dead necrotic tissue mixed with faeces - something which doesn't look good and doesn't smell nice (and dun ask me abt taste). But the worst part is that he has to live with that horrid stuff leaking out of his under-the-scrotum area for quite a few weeks. It took a few more times back to the operation theatre for cleaning and washout before they decided to use a suction dressing to keep the wound dry to promote healing. Oh, i forgot to mention that he was also going thru chemotherapy at that time and thus his healing slowed. Well yea so its not a nice picture.
The part where i'm unhappy about is how the staff are quite unaware of this family's stressed state - it seemed like they have millions of unanswered questions which the docs that cared for them never answered. And when i approached one of the house officers on their team to ask her stuff, she was so impatient! And spoke like she's told them 100 times already and like they'r dumb. I mean, even today at my house, they were confused as to whether there's going to be recurrences of the cancer, and when they should go back to followup clinics - were those things not explained?
Somehow this also made mefeel guilty. It was partly cos i couldn't really answer some of the questions that they asked me - but I was getting a bit impatient with listening to their questions. What i can't stand is people who don't know what they are talking about assuming that they know what they are on about. But hey - they are without medical knowledge and i'm not about to blame them for that....that'll jus b mean.
anyhows, as usual, i get bombarded with questions from my mum about spots on her face, her central abdo pain...etc....like i have a clue of wats happening. Actually i'm GLAD that her symptoms DONT make sense - because if I KNOW the disease, then its probably BAD - cos the only diseases i can recognise are the BAD ones....
Went to Turkish Delight at newmarket for lunch today. For those of u that hasn't been there before, the food there is nice and the plates are BIG!! literally!! BEcause we got coupon so we got like $30 off, but otherwise the dishes are like $20sometihng each at least. But the food is nice and there's lots to eat.
When you sit next to someone new in lecture - or jus some new person u've met - do you feel like there's this "responsibility" to keep that other person beside you entertained? Like during lecs - if i sit nxt to someone i don't know well, i get this "pressure" on me to want to try to make the other person laugh or pass notes and just not concentrate on the lecture. Its like i want to impress that person?? My attempts however always lead to failure - i'll end up passing notes that has bad "jokes" written all over it or muttering something un-understandable which the other person probably just ignores. Is that some kind of peer-pressure?? Or me reacting to a new environment...?
Got this huggge ulcer in my mouth rite now....it so fucking hurts...................= (((((
A mechanic friend of ours came to pick up car to do WOF today. He had a colon adenocarcinoma taken out earlier this year whilst i was doing my surgery run. Seeing him today at my house today reminded me the complications to his operation. He ended up with some necrotic perianal area leaking out dead necrotic tissue mixed with faeces - something which doesn't look good and doesn't smell nice (and dun ask me abt taste). But the worst part is that he has to live with that horrid stuff leaking out of his under-the-scrotum area for quite a few weeks. It took a few more times back to the operation theatre for cleaning and washout before they decided to use a suction dressing to keep the wound dry to promote healing. Oh, i forgot to mention that he was also going thru chemotherapy at that time and thus his healing slowed. Well yea so its not a nice picture.
The part where i'm unhappy about is how the staff are quite unaware of this family's stressed state - it seemed like they have millions of unanswered questions which the docs that cared for them never answered. And when i approached one of the house officers on their team to ask her stuff, she was so impatient! And spoke like she's told them 100 times already and like they'r dumb. I mean, even today at my house, they were confused as to whether there's going to be recurrences of the cancer, and when they should go back to followup clinics - were those things not explained?
Somehow this also made mefeel guilty. It was partly cos i couldn't really answer some of the questions that they asked me - but I was getting a bit impatient with listening to their questions. What i can't stand is people who don't know what they are talking about assuming that they know what they are on about. But hey - they are without medical knowledge and i'm not about to blame them for that....that'll jus b mean.
anyhows, as usual, i get bombarded with questions from my mum about spots on her face, her central abdo pain...etc....like i have a clue of wats happening. Actually i'm GLAD that her symptoms DONT make sense - because if I KNOW the disease, then its probably BAD - cos the only diseases i can recognise are the BAD ones....
Went to Turkish Delight at newmarket for lunch today. For those of u that hasn't been there before, the food there is nice and the plates are BIG!! literally!! BEcause we got coupon so we got like $30 off, but otherwise the dishes are like $20sometihng each at least. But the food is nice and there's lots to eat.
When you sit next to someone new in lecture - or jus some new person u've met - do you feel like there's this "responsibility" to keep that other person beside you entertained? Like during lecs - if i sit nxt to someone i don't know well, i get this "pressure" on me to want to try to make the other person laugh or pass notes and just not concentrate on the lecture. Its like i want to impress that person?? My attempts however always lead to failure - i'll end up passing notes that has bad "jokes" written all over it or muttering something un-understandable which the other person probably just ignores. Is that some kind of peer-pressure?? Or me reacting to a new environment...?
Got this huggge ulcer in my mouth rite now....it so fucking hurts...................= (((((
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