Random again...
Sleepy. Everytime i get home i feel sleepy. urrrgh...got no work done for ages now, but forever sleepy. This morning was so hectic. Turned off alarm but went back to sleep, then woke up fully knowing that i'm gona b late for the 830 lec. Oh well. Leisurely ate breakfast (oyster noodles, + ribs, yum), then drove out, only to realise that i forgot to bring my wallet and cell. ARGH. turned back again, got it, realised that i hav 2 message on my cell. My classmate actually came by my house to pick me up!! ( she forgot that i told her not to)...so now i feel very bad!! its already like 840 by this time - i'm fully not gona make it to tamaki on time, i let my classmate who came to my house and pressed my doorbell only to not get an answer and she's probably pissed off...man...all that frustration in the morning!!
Marae was boring. Supposed to stay there long but instead went shopping. Bought presents for mum, decided to treat myself so i went to buy a $109 shirt at espirts. crazy eh. I can't believe it too, shit, i spent $109 just like that. man. I hope i get good comments on the shirt.
Oh yea the other frustration this morning was that i tried to wear my levi jeans and found that they have become tighter, so i reverted to my loose giodano jeans and found that they fitted nicely i.e. I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT AGAIN!!! =((((((((((( can't believe it....well actually after all those mouth exercises i gave myself i think i CAN imagine, but hey...self denial had been so strong till now... So yea, that added to life's every ending frustration as well.
Also got frustrated by the small wounds on 3 of my fingers which hurt when i touch them (which is often cos i need to use hands to e.g. wear shoes etc), and also on my cubital fossa (other side of elbow).
Sometimes, I wonder if i really think about other people too much. Often i catch myself thinking about my actions and what other people think about them. And other people's actions and their motivation behind them. Like, for example, something happened today made me a bit happy - and i immediately wondered why they mite have done that. But the sane voice in my head tells myself - the other person probably never even thought about whatever you think they think - and its so dumb that i'm just playing mind games to myself!
However another example which is not so explainable: My friend asked me if i want to buy this $200 panasonic X60 from his sister's friend. Apparently its new and they got it from a special deal or something. Anyhows, I decided not to buy the phone in the end, resisting the temptation (also partly cos i dun really like that phone in the 1st place) So the next day I started talking to my classmate who also recently bought the same phone, told her proudly how i resisted buying the phone, and then she told me she saw on TV that vodafone is selling the phone for $199 anyway!!! Which leads me thinking - so what the hell is my friend thinking!? It sounded like such a good deal, but it was only the same as what the outside people are selling. But anyhows, probably not his fault - he probably didn't know. Either that or he's trying to earn $1 from me ^^"
Oh btw the x60 is now sold out according to the website. Ah well.
Zambia, Kenya, Uganda, Eucuador, Somalia, Tanzania, Zimbabwe...
You know, I really want to do my elective with someone i considered cool. Basically someone i would enjoy hanging out with for like a month everyday.
Not to sound like a snob or anything, but so far - the person that sounded serious abt planning elective wif me does not have a good history for travelling with. And the other person - well, he's ok...just ok...
I want to travel and have fun with someone I think i'll enjoy and someone that'll enjoy my company. We ARE going to be seeing each other for nonstop for 1-2 months...
Someone dependable, trustworthy, fun, enthusiatic...someone i can be at ease with and doesn't get on my nerve every few hours
gees do i even fit that description myself!? Please...please let someone want to travel with me!!! =(((
WEll, at least there's little things everything that happend that keeps me going. I try to intepret those events as positive ones too...
Marae was boring. Supposed to stay there long but instead went shopping. Bought presents for mum, decided to treat myself so i went to buy a $109 shirt at espirts. crazy eh. I can't believe it too, shit, i spent $109 just like that. man. I hope i get good comments on the shirt.
Oh yea the other frustration this morning was that i tried to wear my levi jeans and found that they have become tighter, so i reverted to my loose giodano jeans and found that they fitted nicely i.e. I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT AGAIN!!! =((((((((((( can't believe it....well actually after all those mouth exercises i gave myself i think i CAN imagine, but hey...self denial had been so strong till now... So yea, that added to life's every ending frustration as well.
Also got frustrated by the small wounds on 3 of my fingers which hurt when i touch them (which is often cos i need to use hands to e.g. wear shoes etc), and also on my cubital fossa (other side of elbow).
Sometimes, I wonder if i really think about other people too much. Often i catch myself thinking about my actions and what other people think about them. And other people's actions and their motivation behind them. Like, for example, something happened today made me a bit happy - and i immediately wondered why they mite have done that. But the sane voice in my head tells myself - the other person probably never even thought about whatever you think they think - and its so dumb that i'm just playing mind games to myself!
However another example which is not so explainable: My friend asked me if i want to buy this $200 panasonic X60 from his sister's friend. Apparently its new and they got it from a special deal or something. Anyhows, I decided not to buy the phone in the end, resisting the temptation (also partly cos i dun really like that phone in the 1st place) So the next day I started talking to my classmate who also recently bought the same phone, told her proudly how i resisted buying the phone, and then she told me she saw on TV that vodafone is selling the phone for $199 anyway!!! Which leads me thinking - so what the hell is my friend thinking!? It sounded like such a good deal, but it was only the same as what the outside people are selling. But anyhows, probably not his fault - he probably didn't know. Either that or he's trying to earn $1 from me ^^"
Oh btw the x60 is now sold out according to the website. Ah well.
Zambia, Kenya, Uganda, Eucuador, Somalia, Tanzania, Zimbabwe...
You know, I really want to do my elective with someone i considered cool. Basically someone i would enjoy hanging out with for like a month everyday.
Not to sound like a snob or anything, but so far - the person that sounded serious abt planning elective wif me does not have a good history for travelling with. And the other person - well, he's ok...just ok...
I want to travel and have fun with someone I think i'll enjoy and someone that'll enjoy my company. We ARE going to be seeing each other for nonstop for 1-2 months...
Someone dependable, trustworthy, fun, enthusiatic...someone i can be at ease with and doesn't get on my nerve every few hours
gees do i even fit that description myself!? Please...please let someone want to travel with me!!! =(((
WEll, at least there's little things everything that happend that keeps me going. I try to intepret those events as positive ones too...
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