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Just came back from the gym today. The reason why I go to gym? A good answer would be because I'm watching out for my health, making sure I don't become obese andget arterial disease, heart disease, stroke, diabetes and all the mayhem that obesity brings.
But is that really the driving force that brings me to the gym, or jus to exercise in general? No...its the fact that I want to look good. I want other people to think that I look good, and the easiest way to achieve that is by actively trying to change how i look by going to the gym (not very successful yet i tell u - i really think the buffet i had for lunch really hindered this process eh....=.="). Vanity is it. That's my main driving force. How superficial is that?! Y can't i care for the benefits of my health more? And the refresed feeling i get after i go to gym (ok i admit half the time i leave gym i am either half dead or feeling good because i'm going home to eat).
See I'm such a superficial person. And that's not it. I look at other people in the gym and comments pop into my mind. MAN! How can I be so judgemental of how pple look? I mean, after I got off the treadmill, I basically had my shirt plastered to my chest in wetness. I feel, look and feel like literal disgust. I walked past a guy and he didn't have a nice look on his face - and somehow that made me think he's turning up his nose at me (ok i dun really smell THAT much i did put on de-o). That didn't feel nice, seeing that "oh my god its a fat sweaty guy walking past me yuck" look. So that's not good - my brain goes into the complaining mode of how unfair the world is and why u naturally-beautiful-without-having-to-exercise-and-can-eat-all-you-want-and-never-get-fat pple can just float around and do/get watever you want. And then other people walk pass and some not nice comments begin to pop into my head. ERGH!!~~ What kind of person am i!? How can I think that way abt other people?! Especially when i detest the way those PERFECT people critise and put down us fatties, commenting on how lazy, pitiful and useless we are, how our existance visually pollute this world and leave disgust whereever we go. And here I am, making THAT kinda comments about other people!? Gees - and I wonder why humanity is so unkind towards us? I should shoot myself...
But I still think the world is biased towards fat people. I think the world believes that people like me just don't try hard enough to get rid of the fat. We are lazy and procrastinators - constantly finding reasons why we are not able to lose weight. We are big globs of fat that stink of B/O and grease with oil dripping off our body while we sweat. Ok maybe i'm exaggerating a little, but there is a deep-seating obesism. I mean, why shouldn't there be?
1.We are fat because we can't control our mouths, constantly craving for food and eating in excess. Think about all those poor thin african people!! And here I am, eating like its nobody's business.
2.We are fat because we are too lazy to exercise. Because we are spoilt brats who expect things to be done for us without us having to twitch a single hair. And when we get to do stuff ourselves, our immense weight overwhelms watever little fitness we have left in us and we complain and don't do things well.
3.We are fat because we never try to lose weight. Oh yea, we tried verbally. That's probably the furthest we ever got to getting off that couch. And we pretend that we go exercise, gym or watever - but look at the pitiful amount of work that we achieve there. While other people half our weight are pushing 240kg with their feet, we can only manage about 80kg (ok this is a real example - i am pitiful compared to my fren ><"). And while normal people usually do like 4 sets of 15, we take the easy way out and do like 3 sets of 10. And we think that we are going to get better with time and our muscle mass will increase and we will push ourselves harder next time. yea rite - like this self-delusion is going to get us anywhere.
4.We are fat because we like being fat. Oh - there's probably going to be some person out there that actually likes fat people - u know - those girls that like teddybear husbands, and those guys that are into mamas. Oh yea. Another deep-seated layer of self delusion here. Like why would anyone want to be with some dilated dobbling jelly that creates waves thru their tummy every step that they walk, and can't even sit down properly cos their 5 layers of adipose tissue gets stuck between their thigh and breasts (yes thats me...seriously, i disgust myself). OH yea, and all those people who are gona pinch our oh-so-chubby faces and go "oHHHHHH u are SOOOOOOO~~~~~ CUTTTTTTTE!!!! KAWAII!!!~~" U c - our only chance of being likeable is probably to those people who are bordering on delusional disorders (those chatterbox aunties and gossip biatches) or those people who have major eye pathologies (those ah ma or grandmas).
5.We like being fat because we get to be big and strong, and we can protect people. Yea rite. THis probably comes from all those cartoons where u can bounce ur enemies away by actively expanding your ever expanding tummy, and where you tummy has such depth that the punch doesn't actually hit anything substantial and its the same as throwing a punch into a swimming pool of oil intending to hurt the wall 10meters away. Oh yea - jus forget all those times when people 1/3 of our weight wastes us in hand wrestling - without even using their dominant hand. Not to mention the weights thing i talked about earlier. Don't even start on the sumo-wrestler and rollercoaster effect - what real person would want to be protected by a thong-wearing blubber rolling down the street trying to crush their victims? You think that'll actually be fast enough to crush whoever is trying to rob your bag? And this is not an insult to the sumos - because sumos are actually FIT after all the training they went thru, training that people from our obese planet can never survive thru, whereas WE are people who just LOOK like sumos but lack watever massive chakra and ki those sumo wrestlers have inside them. so those that refer to us as sumos - thats really too much of a compliment to us and too much of an insult to the elite sumo world *bow down in respect*
U c? we'r never gona lose weight. We'r never gona stop eating. We'r never gona look good. We'r never going to get a good job. We'r never gona find our soulmate (our own soul is probably drowned by the oil inside us). We'r never going to fit into society (hell we shud try fitting thru our door 1st). We r never going to get anywhere.
We are going to be alone.
And nobody will pity us, cos to them, we are many people (we weigh 5 pple and take up 10seats anyway)
We are going to cry, and hope that our tears are made of oil which will help us get rid of the 100L of them that our bodies are constantly producing.
So, why stop me from going into my dreamworld where I believe people will like me and I'll get a good job and find my significant other (and walk thru a normal door)?
Because that'll never happen in this world.
But is that really the driving force that brings me to the gym, or jus to exercise in general? No...its the fact that I want to look good. I want other people to think that I look good, and the easiest way to achieve that is by actively trying to change how i look by going to the gym (not very successful yet i tell u - i really think the buffet i had for lunch really hindered this process eh....=.="). Vanity is it. That's my main driving force. How superficial is that?! Y can't i care for the benefits of my health more? And the refresed feeling i get after i go to gym (ok i admit half the time i leave gym i am either half dead or feeling good because i'm going home to eat).
See I'm such a superficial person. And that's not it. I look at other people in the gym and comments pop into my mind. MAN! How can I be so judgemental of how pple look? I mean, after I got off the treadmill, I basically had my shirt plastered to my chest in wetness. I feel, look and feel like literal disgust. I walked past a guy and he didn't have a nice look on his face - and somehow that made me think he's turning up his nose at me (ok i dun really smell THAT much i did put on de-o). That didn't feel nice, seeing that "oh my god its a fat sweaty guy walking past me yuck" look. So that's not good - my brain goes into the complaining mode of how unfair the world is and why u naturally-beautiful-without-having-to-exercise-and-can-eat-all-you-want-and-never-get-fat pple can just float around and do/get watever you want. And then other people walk pass and some not nice comments begin to pop into my head. ERGH!!~~ What kind of person am i!? How can I think that way abt other people?! Especially when i detest the way those PERFECT people critise and put down us fatties, commenting on how lazy, pitiful and useless we are, how our existance visually pollute this world and leave disgust whereever we go. And here I am, making THAT kinda comments about other people!? Gees - and I wonder why humanity is so unkind towards us? I should shoot myself...
But I still think the world is biased towards fat people. I think the world believes that people like me just don't try hard enough to get rid of the fat. We are lazy and procrastinators - constantly finding reasons why we are not able to lose weight. We are big globs of fat that stink of B/O and grease with oil dripping off our body while we sweat. Ok maybe i'm exaggerating a little, but there is a deep-seating obesism. I mean, why shouldn't there be?
1.We are fat because we can't control our mouths, constantly craving for food and eating in excess. Think about all those poor thin african people!! And here I am, eating like its nobody's business.
2.We are fat because we are too lazy to exercise. Because we are spoilt brats who expect things to be done for us without us having to twitch a single hair. And when we get to do stuff ourselves, our immense weight overwhelms watever little fitness we have left in us and we complain and don't do things well.
3.We are fat because we never try to lose weight. Oh yea, we tried verbally. That's probably the furthest we ever got to getting off that couch. And we pretend that we go exercise, gym or watever - but look at the pitiful amount of work that we achieve there. While other people half our weight are pushing 240kg with their feet, we can only manage about 80kg (ok this is a real example - i am pitiful compared to my fren ><"). And while normal people usually do like 4 sets of 15, we take the easy way out and do like 3 sets of 10. And we think that we are going to get better with time and our muscle mass will increase and we will push ourselves harder next time. yea rite - like this self-delusion is going to get us anywhere.
4.We are fat because we like being fat. Oh - there's probably going to be some person out there that actually likes fat people - u know - those girls that like teddybear husbands, and those guys that are into mamas. Oh yea. Another deep-seated layer of self delusion here. Like why would anyone want to be with some dilated dobbling jelly that creates waves thru their tummy every step that they walk, and can't even sit down properly cos their 5 layers of adipose tissue gets stuck between their thigh and breasts (yes thats me...seriously, i disgust myself). OH yea, and all those people who are gona pinch our oh-so-chubby faces and go "oHHHHHH u are SOOOOOOO~~~~~ CUTTTTTTTE!!!! KAWAII!!!~~" U c - our only chance of being likeable is probably to those people who are bordering on delusional disorders (those chatterbox aunties and gossip biatches) or those people who have major eye pathologies (those ah ma or grandmas).
5.We like being fat because we get to be big and strong, and we can protect people. Yea rite. THis probably comes from all those cartoons where u can bounce ur enemies away by actively expanding your ever expanding tummy, and where you tummy has such depth that the punch doesn't actually hit anything substantial and its the same as throwing a punch into a swimming pool of oil intending to hurt the wall 10meters away. Oh yea - jus forget all those times when people 1/3 of our weight wastes us in hand wrestling - without even using their dominant hand. Not to mention the weights thing i talked about earlier. Don't even start on the sumo-wrestler and rollercoaster effect - what real person would want to be protected by a thong-wearing blubber rolling down the street trying to crush their victims? You think that'll actually be fast enough to crush whoever is trying to rob your bag? And this is not an insult to the sumos - because sumos are actually FIT after all the training they went thru, training that people from our obese planet can never survive thru, whereas WE are people who just LOOK like sumos but lack watever massive chakra and ki those sumo wrestlers have inside them. so those that refer to us as sumos - thats really too much of a compliment to us and too much of an insult to the elite sumo world *bow down in respect*
U c? we'r never gona lose weight. We'r never gona stop eating. We'r never gona look good. We'r never going to get a good job. We'r never gona find our soulmate (our own soul is probably drowned by the oil inside us). We'r never going to fit into society (hell we shud try fitting thru our door 1st). We r never going to get anywhere.
We are going to be alone.
And nobody will pity us, cos to them, we are many people (we weigh 5 pple and take up 10seats anyway)
We are going to cry, and hope that our tears are made of oil which will help us get rid of the 100L of them that our bodies are constantly producing.
So, why stop me from going into my dreamworld where I believe people will like me and I'll get a good job and find my significant other (and walk thru a normal door)?
Because that'll never happen in this world.
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