Anger Management
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Just came back from bowling just now. Didn't really feel like doing laser strike so I came home.
Of all the clocks that i forgot to forward the time, i didn't do it to my alarm clock. Which means when i woke up for a piss at 1045am this morning and just before I was gonna go back and crash in my bed again I realised that its actually 1045 and I have piano lesson at 11. Damn.
Sometimes I get angry with odd things. My anger generally doesn't last. Well at least I try to forget it most of the time. No good holding bad memories you know. But it sucks when I'm not able to remember what I was angry about, when other pple can. They use that against me. I'm not as good at advocating my thoughts. I get angry, but i can't present my case well enough. The other person get away thinking that the reason for my anger doesn't matter. I get stepped over.
Does it help to be in a relationship that whenever you get angry, the other person threatens to kill themselves, or starts going on abt how u dun need them anymore, how you look down on them? Y do i have to suffer all that guilt just because the other person did something to piss me off? Am i NOT allowed to be pissed off? So other pple can scream at me and throw tempers and I can't say a word? Just because I don't shed tears like others do? Why do i worry about hurting their feelings? ITs not like they care about hurting mine. otherwise I wouldn't be angry in the 1st place.
I know that being angry is the same as being temporarily insane.
And i don't want to be insane.
I've got enough maturity to know that whenever i get angry i do/say things i definitely regret later.
But pple take it for granted that i try not to be angry.
They just think i'm a softie that they can trample over.
Just came back from bowling just now. Didn't really feel like doing laser strike so I came home.
Of all the clocks that i forgot to forward the time, i didn't do it to my alarm clock. Which means when i woke up for a piss at 1045am this morning and just before I was gonna go back and crash in my bed again I realised that its actually 1045 and I have piano lesson at 11. Damn.
Sometimes I get angry with odd things. My anger generally doesn't last. Well at least I try to forget it most of the time. No good holding bad memories you know. But it sucks when I'm not able to remember what I was angry about, when other pple can. They use that against me. I'm not as good at advocating my thoughts. I get angry, but i can't present my case well enough. The other person get away thinking that the reason for my anger doesn't matter. I get stepped over.
Does it help to be in a relationship that whenever you get angry, the other person threatens to kill themselves, or starts going on abt how u dun need them anymore, how you look down on them? Y do i have to suffer all that guilt just because the other person did something to piss me off? Am i NOT allowed to be pissed off? So other pple can scream at me and throw tempers and I can't say a word? Just because I don't shed tears like others do? Why do i worry about hurting their feelings? ITs not like they care about hurting mine. otherwise I wouldn't be angry in the 1st place.
I know that being angry is the same as being temporarily insane.
And i don't want to be insane.
I've got enough maturity to know that whenever i get angry i do/say things i definitely regret later.
But pple take it for granted that i try not to be angry.
They just think i'm a softie that they can trample over.
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