Loner love thyself

I should really get to sleep earlier. Sleeping at 3am is not fun - feel shit the whole of the next day. And got nothing done. Besides eating.

Man the more I complain the more i seem to be eating. It helps too that we had a steamboat on Sat nite where i stuffed myself to the brim and we have been eating the leftovers for the whole of today as well. And I didn't have "time" to exercise cos i was too busy eating and sleeping. ai.

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Some stories:

A 70 year old, currently living alone, feels lonely because her husband passed away 15 years ago and her closest friend lives 2 hours drive away. She attended a concert by herself recently.

A 54 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because she gave up her dreams for her family, was thrown into a marriage she didn't want, and has a non-supportive husband who doesn't not understand nor tries to understand her, as well as being overseas 90% of the time. She cries to herself at home when her son is out of the house.

A 20 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because things around he is not achieving what he wanted in life. He wants to find someone whom he can be comfortable with to share his life. He walked around his favourite childhood park on his birthday alone at night feeling sorry for himself.

A 19 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because she is torn between trying to fit into the crowd and establishing her own self confidence. She had lunch by herself in the foodcourt.

A 20 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because she broke up with her boyfriend of 1 year a few months ago. She wants someone to pay attention to her, as well as someone who is able to connect with her and give back the friendship that she is willing to offer. She walked across town herself from school to the gym, trying to find someone whom she can release her tears with.

A 22 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because she has lost interest in social activities, as well as being disappointed with the quality of the people she meets. She sees herself growing old with 6 dogs, 4 rabbits, and 0 humans.

A 21 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because both the girls he liked lives half a world away and their relationship was finished before it started. He will be flying over by himself around the world to set his heart free.

A 60 year old, currently living at home, feels lonely because half his family is on the other side of the world constantly and he is unable to visit them because of his work. He has spent the last 20 years trying to support his family, and made multiple mistakes financially and personally. He is often home alone after work, depending on the TV for entertainment.

A 87 year old, currently living with his son, feels lonely because her husband died 30 years ago and she is unhappy living with her daughter-in-law. SHe is unable to feel at home, doesn't not have the food she wants, and has no-one to take her outside for walks - she's constantly cooped in the house. Her grandsons either take her for granted or are too busy or too far away to see her. The daughter that she has pampered in the past is unwilling to take care of her, and her granddaughter threw her out of the house. She talks to herself at home and dwells on her hatred of the past.

A 83 year old, currently living at home with a maid, feels lonely because her husband died last year. She is used to having things done taken care of for her by her husband, and does not know how to make decisions on her own. She wants people close to her to love her and be aroudn her, but none of her sons/daughters are willing to do that. One daughter-in-law won't even let her live at her house. She is without will to continue living and has lost interest in going to church or reading newspapers. She is still in grief over her husband of 60 years. Her sons and daughters think she doesn't appreciate them enough. She lives alone and the maid refuses to eat on the same table as her.

A 70 year old man, currently living alone at home, feels lonely because his sons and 1 daughter all have families overseas. He has been a diabetic for 30 years and has problems with his eyes and heart. He has lost 70% of his strength and liveliness compared to 5 years ago. He now unable to drive. He had amputation 2 years ago and now has to use a scooter to get around. He can only see through 1 eye with limited eyesight. He constantly looks forward to visit from his sons and grandsons. The does not get on with the daughter living in the same city as him and they are not in touch. He divorced his wife 20-30 years ago. He believes that euthanasia is a good idea.

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Loneliness is all around us.

So sometimes when I look into the future. I don't see a Happy loving environment.

I see myself, old and fat.

And alone.

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