Sleepy and Angry
Been really sleepy these days. Thats all I can think about.
Been in GP clinics these days playing doctor. Seeing mostly Maori patients. It still feels funny to me. I feel like i'm doing some sort of acting, asking the questions and doing the examinations even tho i don't know what i'm doing half the time. I can't even think of the good questions to ask. And the most obvious things always somehow don't occur to me.
So what did i do today? Started today by seeing this guy with a foreign body in his cornea so I watched the GP take it out with a tiny screwdriver thingee under anaesthetic eyedrops. Oh and the fluorescent thing where you put it over the eyes, shine ultraviolet light and you see the foreign body shine up in green. Then I saw this 53 yr old man with back pain, and I gave him intramuscular voltaren into his back. Oh yea I also drained an abscess on this 14 year old guy's hairline. I actually cut it using a blade and squeezed out the pus among the blood. U know like how you squeeze out a pimple? Except this is a HUGE "pimple", like 3cm diameter pimple. As you can imagine lots of rotten cheese came out. Then in the afternoon it was this boy with a headache, then a girl with histocytosis X and Pituitary tumour, did a pregnancy test on this woman with TypeI diabetes,saw this person with swollen hands and swollen feet where we suspect carpel tunnel syndrome, had this lady who came in after a car accident but probably just got blunt trauma to her shoulder. From 4-7 I saw 6 more patients by myself, mostly people with colds and boils. Nothing much. Got to look at this guy's butt for a boil cos he didn't want the female doctor to look at his butt. Apparently he has another boil below his testicles where he was reluctant to show me. OH WELL~~..=.="
Oh yea at 8am this morning i also had to present this little research thing i did, half of what i said i made up on the spot (and was found out by my classmate dammit)
And here I m feeling like i need a big big sleep after a big big meal.
EATEATEAT
SLEEPSLEEPSLEEP
oh and i ate chocolate today, felt guilty. But the chocolates came all the way from america!!! the type my dad likes, minty, but i don't like it. I think I like white chocolate better.
And for those who actually thot i work hard, i just watched 2 episodes of scrubs on my computer. I'm addicted. The 4th season is pretty ok. Molly is cute. And no you don't find such cute consultants in the hospital.
One of the themes on scrubs today was that every doc has killed someone. I constantly feel like i'm hurting someone (well I am, like how i cut into this boy's forehead today without anaesthetics. I mean the doc told me it won't hurt cos the tissue has died, but the boy said it hurts. SO?!) Oh btw that 14 yr old boy looks like keanu reeves, for those interested. He even talks like him - always giving me one worded answers if he can. hm...
On Wednesday we had this anger workshop, where an actor pretends to be really angry and starts shouting into your face and makes degrading personal comments at you. I found out that I don't handle stress and anger well. Not as well as others anyway - my classmates and the tutor is awesome - they can get the patient to calm down enough to talk and actually do something meaningful. I guess I jus don't know how to deal with people. As usual the lack of interpersonal skills. Another reason why I m going to end up alone. Anyway. I get completely sucked into the anger and kinda freeze - losing directions. Duno what to say. Become defensive. Completely not what i'm thought. And the thing is even tho I know how i SHOULD act i DON'T want to. I duno, I would enjoy having a shouting match with the patient. Maybe. If my frustration build up enough. Like I just want to me completely mean and make the angry person feel like a piece of shit.
Maybe I've been watching too much scrubs......
Been in GP clinics these days playing doctor. Seeing mostly Maori patients. It still feels funny to me. I feel like i'm doing some sort of acting, asking the questions and doing the examinations even tho i don't know what i'm doing half the time. I can't even think of the good questions to ask. And the most obvious things always somehow don't occur to me.
So what did i do today? Started today by seeing this guy with a foreign body in his cornea so I watched the GP take it out with a tiny screwdriver thingee under anaesthetic eyedrops. Oh and the fluorescent thing where you put it over the eyes, shine ultraviolet light and you see the foreign body shine up in green. Then I saw this 53 yr old man with back pain, and I gave him intramuscular voltaren into his back. Oh yea I also drained an abscess on this 14 year old guy's hairline. I actually cut it using a blade and squeezed out the pus among the blood. U know like how you squeeze out a pimple? Except this is a HUGE "pimple", like 3cm diameter pimple. As you can imagine lots of rotten cheese came out. Then in the afternoon it was this boy with a headache, then a girl with histocytosis X and Pituitary tumour, did a pregnancy test on this woman with TypeI diabetes,saw this person with swollen hands and swollen feet where we suspect carpel tunnel syndrome, had this lady who came in after a car accident but probably just got blunt trauma to her shoulder. From 4-7 I saw 6 more patients by myself, mostly people with colds and boils. Nothing much. Got to look at this guy's butt for a boil cos he didn't want the female doctor to look at his butt. Apparently he has another boil below his testicles where he was reluctant to show me. OH WELL~~..=.="
Oh yea at 8am this morning i also had to present this little research thing i did, half of what i said i made up on the spot (and was found out by my classmate dammit)
And here I m feeling like i need a big big sleep after a big big meal.
EATEATEAT
SLEEPSLEEPSLEEP
oh and i ate chocolate today, felt guilty. But the chocolates came all the way from america!!! the type my dad likes, minty, but i don't like it. I think I like white chocolate better.
And for those who actually thot i work hard, i just watched 2 episodes of scrubs on my computer. I'm addicted. The 4th season is pretty ok. Molly is cute. And no you don't find such cute consultants in the hospital.
One of the themes on scrubs today was that every doc has killed someone. I constantly feel like i'm hurting someone (well I am, like how i cut into this boy's forehead today without anaesthetics. I mean the doc told me it won't hurt cos the tissue has died, but the boy said it hurts. SO?!) Oh btw that 14 yr old boy looks like keanu reeves, for those interested. He even talks like him - always giving me one worded answers if he can. hm...
On Wednesday we had this anger workshop, where an actor pretends to be really angry and starts shouting into your face and makes degrading personal comments at you. I found out that I don't handle stress and anger well. Not as well as others anyway - my classmates and the tutor is awesome - they can get the patient to calm down enough to talk and actually do something meaningful. I guess I jus don't know how to deal with people. As usual the lack of interpersonal skills. Another reason why I m going to end up alone. Anyway. I get completely sucked into the anger and kinda freeze - losing directions. Duno what to say. Become defensive. Completely not what i'm thought. And the thing is even tho I know how i SHOULD act i DON'T want to. I duno, I would enjoy having a shouting match with the patient. Maybe. If my frustration build up enough. Like I just want to me completely mean and make the angry person feel like a piece of shit.
Maybe I've been watching too much scrubs......
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